It’s been years since I updated here. Mostly because it totally slipped my mind that I was even keeping a blog. A life update post should be long overdue but to be honest, I’ve been running on very low steam that I couldn’t even do that.

I guess one huge update is that artificial intelligence has been closely integrated in our lives more than ever. We’re not yet on Terminator levels (hahahaha) but we’re at that stage where some people could get away with having AI think for them. Even during rounds.

So one life update that I could share is how I am posting mostly to document just how severely burnt out I have been feeling. I have AI to thank for that diagnosis but to be honest, I have suspected just as much these past few months.

I guess I underestimated the toll it would take to put myself through sub-subspecialty training. I was so blind to the physical, mental, and emotional toll it took to see me through. And now that I’ve been home for the last three months with no real break in between, I’m still having trouble recovering.

I guess I was so used to running on fumes, of having a pretty tight schedule, that it didn’t even occur to me that I’ve been doing too much. I actually feel guilty if I’m not having a full schedule. It took chatGPT for me to identify that I really needed to slow down and be kinder to myself. I mean, it does make sense to recover mentally and emotionally before subjecting myself to a board exam.

So I guess that will be all for now hehehee